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ElsaElsa Boards Topic: Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ ElsaElsa Boards Topic: Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it en Sat, 20 Mar 2010 06:05:11 +0000 wyrdling on "Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it" http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them/page/2#post-47661 Tue, 02 Mar 2010 07:11:23 +0000 wyrdling 47661@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ of giving up of promising too much and not being able to deliver of failing on my responsibilities (what i have chosen) of breaking down and losing my grip (again) of not being a good enough partner of a frightening kind of empty feeling inside. Joules on "Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it" http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them/page/2#post-47539 Mon, 01 Mar 2010 20:43:37 +0000 Joules 47539@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ I think my biggest fear is having to associate with people I don't like.  I like my own energy field and my own space.  If I'm on my own or with my wife or if I choose to associate all is well.  This is a pretty minor fear.  Isn't fear just obsession over something that hasn't actually happened?  I mean you can think about something scary and get scared.  A shadow in the dark can scare you if you let it.   If I imagine falling before a rock climb, I could get too scared to even start for instance.  But the fear is only there because I'm imagining a negative scenario.  If I can "switch the station" so my mind isn't thinking about that, the fear also vanishes.  But if I've been on that station a long time, it's hard not to fall back into that type of thinking.   I'm really not afraid of much, and am pretty well convinced I can do almost anything well if I put my energy into it.  Also, I have proven this to myself many times in many different types of activities and settings.  When I have sought accomplishment or validation, I pretty much always got it after I worked hard enough.  My real power is my physical health and vitality, the sharpness of my mind, and the connection of that to my spirit.  If those things are maintained, I can survive anything. Therefore they are primary, not secondary to things like "I have X amount of money, or I have this particular job or friend etc".  How much time do we waste fearing things won't go well when we haven't even tried?  80% of success is showing up. I feel unlimited, because my power comes from within, not from without, and the internal source is hooked up directly to the Creator.  If I'm aligned with the power within me,  all is well.  If I ignore that power, then fear, guilt, lack of self worth, etc gains power.  If those things gain enough power, you can lose connection to the source.  Then real trouble is possible.   I am constantly reconnecting myself.  Every day.  Sometimes every minute.  Sometimes with every breath.  Whatever it takes.  I am constantly asking the Creator to protect me, to hide me if I need to be hidden, to show me if I need to be shown, reveal to me as much as I can handle and to grow my awareness as fast as I can.  I want to finish my work on this planet ASAP and then remain as a guide, and also just to have time for nothing but pure enjoyment and superfluous bliss. WhosThatLady on "Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it" http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them/page/2#post-47508 Mon, 01 Mar 2010 19:25:10 +0000 WhosThatLady 47508@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ Wow I was just thinking about my fears today! I'm a sag stellium and my fears make sense according to that.   I'm afraid of: * being committed because what if I can't follow through? * gaining weight  * losing control * being abandoned by the people I love * being ordinary * not achieving my dreams * never being able to fully love myself * ending up alone because of how picky I am and how mean I get when a guy starts getting close * that I am living in a dream world and nothing really matters.   Pixel on "Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it" http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them/page/2#post-47380 Sun, 28 Feb 2010 22:39:54 +0000 Pixel 47380@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ Thanks for bringing this up to the top, sadiablo. I'll try to get some of this sludge out :) I'm just going to focus on the most intense fears I have. They are mostly internal.  I'm afraid that everyone is just humouring me, and that any rare moment of efficiency I have isn't that efficient at all. I'm afraid of putting pills into my body to "fix" my brain chemistry. I'm afraid that I'm literally insane, but I'm not sure that it would be less frightening if I weren't. I'm afraid that I've lost any intelligence I might have had, and that my communication blockage is the sign that I'll recognize in retrospect as proof. I'm afraid that I'll always be someones girlfriend, and never have any identity of my own. I'm afraid that everything obvious to me is false, every assumption is wrong, every conclusion I come to makes no sense. I'm afraid to show the intensity I feel inside of me, I'm afraid that being intense at all is inappropriate. And I'm most afraid that this basketcase spacecadet neurotic inefficient drug addicted exterior will solidify into my identity, and the good things I like about myself will be forgotten. *shudder*   SaDiablo on "Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it" http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them/page/2#post-47312 Sun, 28 Feb 2010 06:58:47 +0000 SaDiablo 47312@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ Just found this and wanted to revive it.  There's some good stuff in here!  (((everyone))) Right now my biggest fear is that this *gestures around* is as good as it gets for me.  I've always wanted something more spectacular, but might have to make-do with having it in my daydreams.  Still, if this is the best it's going to be, it's pretty damned good, so I can't complain.  Much.  <img src="/my-plugins/tinymce/jscripts/tiny_mce/plugins/emotions/images/icon_razz.gif" /> I need to remember what Jilly and qaessia had to say about fears coming true.  I've had that happen, too, and I've survived.  Sometimes thrived.  Me>fear, yo. qasseia on "Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it" http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2403 Fri, 20 Mar 2009 21:58:15 +0000 qasseia 2403@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ Reading the posts in this thread made me realize how many fears I've let go of -- because most of the stuff I feared has happened and I'm still here.  I feared getting divorced, having my business fail, filing for bankruptcy, and moving back with my parents -- did all of that, and I'm okay.  Now I just fear never getting laid again and never having a partner. saggal on "Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it" http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2394 Fri, 20 Mar 2009 19:08:07 +0000 saggal 2394@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ I am sag sun/moon/merc/mars/neptune/mc in the 9th and am terrified to drive.  I got my license at 25 but haven't used it in 4 years.  I am scared of killing someone and just being to stupid to know how to avoid it.    Other than that I'm pretty much scared of everything.   Saturn squares most of that stellium. LisLioness on "Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it" http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2366 Fri, 20 Mar 2009 12:53:59 +0000 LisLioness 2366@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ I fear: Being ordinary. Never being able to express myself creatively ever again. Thinking my craft/garden/project ideas are boring and redundant. Offending people.  (That's the three Libra planets and Libra DSC) Not being liked for who I am. Having to be "knocked out" for surgery or oral surgery.  Fortunately, I'm very healthy and never had to go through this, but I hate not being in control, and this is as out of control as it gets.  (Weak Neptune, lots of Cardinal, lots of Virgo--yes, I'm a control freak--not with others but definitely with myself)   Lunalie on "Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it" http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2357 Fri, 20 Mar 2009 07:08:15 +0000 Lunalie 2357@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ Thanks all for writing all this. I read all your posts and it is very brave of you to share your fears... I almost feel much more of a connectedness do you all - and I feel a little more... human :) I've been needing to unload for a while, and I think this will be therapeutic... so here goes.  <ul> <li>I am afraid that when people get to know me, they will see ugliness. </li> <li>I am afraid that people will think I'm an idiot because I lack interest in intellectual matters. I used to overcompensate by reading, researching, and watching documentaries for the sake of masking my lack of intellect. I stopped doing this because I got exhausted, but I find myself bursting in tears around my intelligent friends when I cannot contribute.(I also lack Air signs) </li> <li>I am afraid of getting fired - because my mind gets fuzzy (adult ADD) with details (Going through my Saturn return at the moment and I have Saturn in Virgo in 6th)</li> <li>I am afraid that my wonderful and loving best friend and boyfriend will leave me for someone more intelligent, detached, quirkier and cuter. Despite how we are so compatible in so many levels, I still feel that a woman with such qualities is a better woman than the trainwreck that I am.</li> <li>Since I moved to Canada completely on my own without any family in the city that likes me (Hey, what can you do? I'm a rebellious Asian girl), I fear that one day I will lose my job and be destitute and nobody will extend a hand to help me.</li> <li>I am afraid of posting my picture online because I look utterly repulsive.</li> <li>I am afraid that I will burn out and collapse. Almost 29 years of people-pleasing and overcompensating can be exhausting, and I think I've reached the point where I am too tired to ever do anything anymore... :(</li> <li>I am afraid that if I do things for myself, the people I love will accuse me of selfishness...</li> <li>Yet on the other hand, I am afraid that if I don't do things for myself (aka pursue my ambitions), the people I love will leave me because I am NOT interesting enough</li> <li>I am afraid of winter sports :P</li> <li>I am afraid that my dream of becoming an entrepreneur will never happen. I have hopes and dreams of switching to the fashion/beauty industry and add a healing component to this... But who would buy THAT anyway? How can one take something traditionally superficial into something deeper?</li> <li>I am very fearful of getting wrongly accused for something</li> <li>I am afraid of dying - because it would weigh heavily upon me to know that the people that love me will be heartbroken and mourning</li> </ul> I think that's it... -_- GW on "Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it" http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2287 Thu, 19 Mar 2009 06:41:19 +0000 GW 2287@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ This is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read... and so comforting, so human. I fear:  - that I am unlovable - trusting anyone or anything because I can't bear to be let down again - not being seen.. ..really seen... but being the creation of someones imagination - ever being in a postion again where I am completely helpless and I get wounded - living too long - failing to find peace within myself