http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ ElsaElsa Boards Topic: Name your fears and face them: Elsas Idea..run with it en Sat, 21 Nov 2009 12:49:27 +0000 http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2403 Fri, 20 Mar 2009 21:58:15 +0000 qasseia 2403@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ <p>Reading the posts in this thread made me realize how many fears I've let go of -- because most of the stuff I feared has happened and I'm still here.&nbsp; I feared getting divorced, having my business fail, filing for bankruptcy, and moving back with my parents -- did all of that, and I'm okay.&nbsp; Now I just fear never getting laid again and never having a partner. </p> http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2394 Fri, 20 Mar 2009 19:08:07 +0000 saggal 2394@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ <p>I am sag sun/moon/merc/mars/neptune/mc in the 9th and am terrified to drive.&nbsp; I got my license at 25 but haven't used it in 4 years.&nbsp; I am scared of killing someone and just being to stupid to know how to avoid it.&nbsp; </p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>Other than that I'm pretty much scared of everything. &nbsp; Saturn squares most of that stellium.</p> http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2366 Fri, 20 Mar 2009 12:53:59 +0000 LisLioness 2366@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ <p>I fear:</p> <p>Being ordinary.</p> <p>Never being able to express myself creatively ever again.</p> <p>Thinking my craft/garden/project ideas are boring and redundant.</p> <p>Offending people.&nbsp; (That's the three Libra planets and Libra DSC)</p> <p>Not being liked for who I am.</p> <p>Having to be &quot;knocked out&quot; for surgery or oral surgery.&nbsp; Fortunately, I'm very healthy and never had to go through this, but I hate not being in control, and this is as out of control as it gets.&nbsp; (Weak Neptune, lots of Cardinal, lots of Virgo--yes, I'm a control freak--not with others but definitely with myself)</p> <p>&nbsp; </p> http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2357 Fri, 20 Mar 2009 07:08:15 +0000 Lunalie 2357@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ <p>Thanks all for writing all this. I read all your posts and it is very brave of you to share your fears... I almost feel much more of a connectedness do you all - and I feel a little more... human :)</p> <p>I've been needing to unload for a while, and I think this will be therapeutic... so here goes.&nbsp;</p> <ul> <li>I am afraid that when people get to know me, they will see ugliness. </li> <li>I am afraid that people will think I'm an idiot because I lack interest in intellectual matters. I used to overcompensate by reading, researching, and watching documentaries for the sake of masking my lack of intellect. I stopped doing this because I got exhausted, but I find myself bursting in tears around my intelligent friends when I cannot contribute.(I also lack Air signs) </li> <li>I am afraid of getting fired - because my mind gets fuzzy (adult ADD) with details (Going through my Saturn return at the moment and I have Saturn in Virgo in 6th)</li> <li>I am afraid that my wonderful and loving best friend and boyfriend will leave me for someone more intelligent, detached, quirkier and cuter. Despite how we are so compatible in so many levels, I still feel that a woman with such qualities is a better woman than the trainwreck that I am.</li> <li>Since I moved to Canada completely on my own without any family in the city that likes me (Hey, what can you do? I'm a rebellious Asian girl), I fear that one day I will lose my job and be destitute and nobody will extend a hand to help me.</li> <li>I am afraid of posting my picture online because I look utterly repulsive.</li> <li>I am afraid that I will burn out and collapse. Almost 29 years of people-pleasing and overcompensating can be exhausting, and I think I've reached the point where I am too tired to ever do anything anymore... :(</li> <li>I am afraid that if I do things for myself, the people I love will accuse me of selfishness...</li> <li>Yet on the other hand, I am afraid that if I don't do things for myself (aka pursue my ambitions), the people I love will leave me because I am NOT interesting enough</li> <li>I am afraid of winter sports :P</li> <li>I am afraid that my dream of becoming an entrepreneur will never happen. I have hopes and dreams of switching to the fashion/beauty industry and add a healing component to this... But who would buy THAT anyway? How can one take something traditionally superficial into something deeper?</li> <li>I am very fearful of getting wrongly accused for something</li> <li>I am afraid of dying - because it would weigh heavily upon me to know that the people that love me will be heartbroken and mourning</li> </ul> I think that's it... -_- </p> http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2287 Thu, 19 Mar 2009 06:41:19 +0000 GW 2287@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ <p>This is one of the most beautiful things I have ever read... and so comforting, so human.</p> <p>I fear:&nbsp;</p> <p>- that I am unlovable</p> <p>- trusting anyone or anything because I can't bear to be let down again</p> <p>- not being seen.. ..really seen... but being the creation of someones imagination</p> <p>- ever being in a postion again where I am completely&nbsp;helpless and I get wounded</p> <p>- living too long</p> <p>- failing to find peace within myself</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2285 Thu, 19 Mar 2009 05:42:21 +0000 Gloria 2285@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ <p>I am afraid that I am getting having faith and being in denial all mixed up.</p> <p>I am afraid of the nasty scenarios I entertain myself with coming true.</p> <p>I am afraid that my love is not reciprocated and that </p> <p>I am afraid I wont be able to stop thinking up things to worry about when everything is ok.</p> <p>I am afraid that I can't &quot;just let it go&quot;.</p> <p>I am afraid that I am won't be able to accept the fact that my man is a handsome hairdresser who works with a bunch of beautiful girls and he's a good loyal honest guy and I just still have trust issues because I am projecting all my bad qualities onto him while he is faithful and loyal man and doesn't fuck around. I am afraid that once I really fully trust, I will one day be disappointed and I'll feel really stupid. Maybe it's that fact that I used to be a female douchebag and cannot be trusted. His simplicity and character makes me feel shameful of myself and on my bad days, I wonder what the fuck he's doing with me...</p> <p>This is all coming up now that I am in saturn return territory... and this venus retrograde... man am I visiting old places and faces...</p> <p>Finally, I am afraid because I feel the pressure of making these 180 degree changes in my life on so many level and it's so drastically different from who and what and where i've been, I don't know what to expect. I look forward to it but I am not sure what's coming ahead. I just want to be good. I can't keep living and get stuck on the same negative thought patterns anymore, it doesn't feel right anymore. Lying doesn't feel right, memories of cheating feels fucking terrible, drinking doesn't feel right, doing drugs is just the last thing on my mind, not working out makes me feel guilty, not eating healthy makes my skin break out...&nbsp;</p> <p>sorry I just typed so much...I feel really vulnerable being so honest about all this...&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2283 Thu, 19 Mar 2009 04:04:24 +0000 denamaria 2283@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ <p>Hi Heart.....I found this post very deep and endearing. &nbsp;I was surprised to read my morning paper and find this article on the front page....so you are on the right track and it must be so cathardic to do what you did as evidenced by this man's mission for an art exhibition and he was stunned at the response. &nbsp;I copied it so you could read part of this. &nbsp;Most of the fears described by everybody here on this post are many of my own too and it seems inherent in so many folks out there.....we are not alone.</p> <p>&gt;In late 2004, Frank Warren had an idea: distribute postcards -- in coffee shops, in libraries, on the street -- and ask people to write their secrets on them, then send them back to him anonymously.&quot;It felt kind of like a prank or a sociological experiment,&quot; Warren said this week. &quot;But I soon realized that I had tapped into something mysterious and wonderful.&quot;&lt;<img src="http://media.newsobserver.com/smedia/2009/03/18/01/874-postsecret-0318.ART_GUACPOCF.1+POSTSECRET2.JPG.mi_embedded.prod_affiliate.3.jpg" alt=" " />&nbsp; </p> http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2272 Thu, 19 Mar 2009 02:10:56 +0000 kashmiri 2272@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ <p>togi! is it smithers or terrace? i forget. going to haida gwaii for the edge of the world festival! :::fingers crossed::: </p> http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2271 Thu, 19 Mar 2009 01:48:24 +0000 Dina 2271@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ <p>Why astrologically is fear coming up lately?</p> <p>&nbsp;Lately I'm afraid of so many things.&nbsp; I want to believe that everything will be okay.&nbsp; I feel all the uncertainty, suddenly.&nbsp; It's serious, real, uncertainty.&nbsp; (Saturn/Uranus?)&nbsp; The possibility of anything scary happening.&nbsp; I have OCD traits and this scares me the most.&nbsp; I'm afraid to mention them, but it's basically the stuff you guys have been mentioning.&nbsp; </p> http://boards.elsaelsa.com/topic/name-your-fears-and-face-them#post-2196 Tue, 17 Mar 2009 23:32:17 +0000 Togi 2196@http://boards.elsaelsa.com/ <p>Kashmiri. I live in northern BC. Stop in and say hi!</p> <p>PS:&nbsp; Once you get past Abbotsford traffic is not an issue.</p>