I use astrology mostly to study myself and to have some kind of understanding over what is going on in my life. But of course there is no objectivity when I use it this way. Who's to say my interpretation isn't just a projection, either negative or positive of the energies on hand?

I've learned a lot here about energy and maybe you guys can help me figure out the best use of the squeeze i'm feeling as pluto in capricorn edges into the t-square in the next year and a half and squaring my own pluto in 2011.

Scorpio rules my 2nd house so this pluto square i feel is already affecting me. Pluto in capricorn is transiting my 3rd house and squaring my pluto in libra in the 12th. My career so far has been as a video editor, fairly lucrative, but in the last year I was laid off and work stalled. I have been trying to cold call and learn how to "pitch" myself to try to get work - one of the ways i interpreted the 3rd house transit - plus sound advice from people with capricorn planets.

However it's eating away at my self-esteem and i'm feeling inner resistance to continuing in this way. I also think it might be time to start writing/researching/producing for television as I think I have some skill with this (mercury in scorpio trines my jupiter in pisces and saturn in cancer) so with the support of a former supervisor/producer I am volunteering to write a historical segment of a show on history and architecture.

If I simply pursue writing/producing I feel guilty for "giving up" on cold calling and pitching to continue my profession as an editor. Any thoughts on this? Do I do the hard yet semi-debilitating work of knocking on doors and feeling rejected for a greater reward at the end? Or do I do the challenging yet rewarding researching/writing volunteering until I craft a new career direction? 

As a child I was drawn to writing and reading Steven King novels. Pluto would have been transiting my mercury around then. I was centered out in school for my writing style (both positive and negative) and the reaction I would get from people is what drew me to media. 

I also have saturn in cancer so this capricorn energy is challenging to me. My mentor with the writing is a woman. Cold calling strangers tends to be a capricorn/male world. I find it harder in general to be hired by men. I was once but it was because I changed my approach to landing an interview (3rd house), and he was a scorpio. 

Any thoughts on this please share. Especially people who have been through their pluto square.

Thanks :)

I use astrology mostly to study myself and to have some kind of understanding over what is going on in my life. But of course there is no objectivity when I use it this way. Who's to say my interpretation isn't just a projection, either negative or positive of the energies on hand?

Well, that's all anyone's interrpretation is, right?  Since you know yourself, the facts and the details better than anyone else possibly could, I'd say that -barring serious delusions-, you're probably the best person for the job.

Someone like Elsa can help you get a handle on the big picture - she's incredibly knowledgable and she knows and has experienced things with astrology that many of us aren't familiar with and need clarifying....but people like that are resources.

Go with your gut.

I called this "Building Self Esteem" because of the pluto in capricorn (building) transit which will effect my house of self esteem. I really enjoyed the results of it having finished my 2nd house. Not much rocks my innate sense of self. Except this new challenge - if i should keep pursuing the hard work of cold calling, and releasing the tension through yoga, or if i should see writing as the road to climb.

Liz, can you not do both?  Either equally, or some other more satisfying division?  80% writing, 20% cold-calling or some other ratio that suits your needs?

Thanks DreamsAreality. That might be a good alternative. My libra would prefer a balance, however the capricorn energy leaves me feeling i should choose.

Liz, I am no good with this kind of thing anymore.  20 years of working at home for myself leaves me in the just 'go with the flow' mode.  If I feel like working on X today, that is what I do.  If I want to stop in the middle and go another direction, then I do that too, so strict formula work division like this would be hard mode for me to get to, but it seems to work for some.  Even an I'll work on X four days this week, and Y the other workday?  My rebellious nature would blow that right out of the water.  "But!!! WHINE I don't wanNNNNNNna do Y today". 

I wish you good luck deciding what works best for you.  And, heck, who says, you can't change your mind again tomorrow????

This would be nothing astrology related, but I am going through something similar. Being laid off can sometimes be draining to the self esteem. It's been a month since I have been, but contrary to you, I am unsure about my direction in life. Like you, I am also in a creative field (a web designer), but I'm looking to leave life in front of the screen gradually for a life in the not-so-glamourous field of fashion/beauty.

To me, you seem to know what you want, and I would suggest you run along with this. Perhaps if you can handle pitching yourself for video and doing some writing on the side, it would be great. I am hoping you have the energy to do this as it can be taxing yet somehow rewarding.

A good way to deal with pluto transits is yoga and physical activity. Since a few weeks after my layoff, I've been running and I've recently joined a yoga class, and these have made significant differences - or at the very least, I don't feel the world is ending right before my eyes anymore ;) I'm going through a very tough one PLUS my Saturn return at the moment, so you can imagine the pain I'm going through. Also, I read somewhere that with Pluto, you really have to be gentle with yourself and take care of yourself. So if the cold-calling is exhausting you, cut back a little or you'll burn out.

I hope this helps. I'm still in the throes of my Pluto transit so I am not sure if my recommendations even work. Good luck! 

What would happen if you made one?  I mean -wrote, shot, edited a video of yourself that could do the cold-calling for you?  ie, become your calling card/resume?

That's a great idea DreamsAreality. Still unsure if people will look at it. But it's different than just a cold-call resume. Hmm. A friend mentioned something similar. He also suggested making myself a business with a different name so that it's not "me" out there. Both appeal to my libra 12th house planets.

Lunalie.. web design was my backup plan lol.  And I agree about the exercise. I go to yoga once a week. It's made a world of difference. Thank you for your insight. And good luck navigating your saturn return. I wish I'd known of this blog elsa through mine. 

How's all this going Liz?