my younger daughter, the man and I went to the high school football game last night. there are two high schools in the area. the man and I graduated from one and my kids will go to the other. so my older daughter went to the home game at the other while we went to the one across the river. so we got there late and just sat somewhere. then at halftime the man texted his friends to find out where they were sitting and we went to join them. One's a widower, one's a bachelor and one's married but his wife doesn't go to games, between them there were two little kids along, boys. anyway, they were on one end of an upper area and we had to walk through a bunch of bleachers to get to them, which means stepping up and down, through and around people. I've had vertigo for about a year now and this is daunting for me. I'm afraid I'm going to step on someone or fall. so one of the people I was having to maneuver was this gal who I had really wanted to be friends with in junior high, smart, very nice to me, our parents were contemporaries socially.

she rejected my friendship and I was not only hurt but really embarrassed to have put myself out there. she was "popular" but I was well-liked. I just want to say i wasn't unpopular, I just wasn't exclusionary and the excluded me from being popular. if you were friends with supposed "geeks" you got limited socially. whatever, that I was fine with. I just hate being vulnerable and getting shot down. that's my damage. we've had dealings on and off through the years to about five years ago and I haven't seen her since then. the interactions have always left me feeling that same feeling, a little embarassed.

okay this is TOTALLY STUPID and I realize it... I said, "oh hi!" as I was going by. she had a nice blanket on the seats and yelled, "DON'T STEP ON THE BLANKET!" I wasn't going to. I wasn't raised in a barn. I have a cap moon I'm not going to fucking step on your blanket, who would?

so we were sitting at the end of her row ten feet away. then her husband and her couple friends came back from the refreshment stands. who would that be? oh just a guy I haven't seen in over 20 years, the guy who tried to rape me and would have done had a friend not arrived to help me. what the fucking fuck? oh yeah, and this guy is a city councilman. niiiiiiiice.

and the weird thing? I'm more bothered by the "DON'T STEP ON THE BLANKET" comment than anything else. I have to say though the net effect was actually positive. I think I finally stopped giving a shit about that chick or what she thinks. fuck 'em.

so the upshot is GOOD. clearly I already let the near rape thing go (it was very near, very) and I'm glad I am letting the other go too.

any corpses in your neck of the woods?

I'd like to add: I don't think about these things normally, but when old acquaintances pop up out of the blue they tend to awaken old feelings that haven't been processed fully.

Good grief! (((satori))) I don't know what to say about that man....ugh

Fuck her and her damn blanket. I mean it. I think NOT having her in your life is a good thing.

As for me, I think I saw the woman that stalked me yesterday, but I was fine too.

i avoided a corpse today..  saw her shopping while i was at work.  she had a crush on me in high school....  that is, until i slept with her brother...... 

but personally..  i would have given that bitch the "who the fuck do you think you are look" and purposefully jumped up and down on her god damn blanket; ground the dirt off my shoes into the stitching and then told her to go fuck her materialistic self. a fight would have ensued...  probably some cat calling and bitch slapping.....  hair pulling and scratching. 

this is all in my head of course..  i never would have even said "hi" to a corpse like that.   those touchy ones i try to avoid completely. (it's only the ex's that I have unresolved issues with that i track down like a bounty hunter)

but now that i think of it..... i was at the bank the other day, filling out the deposit slip and all of a sudden the guy on the other side of the table said "hey..  i remember you.  you're Rich right?  i'm (such and such), do you remember me?" 

i had no fucking clue..  told him so, and waled away.  sorry....

and i did have lunch with one of my ex's on tuesday..  with my sister in tow.  (she was having a makeup consult in his town so i txtd as we've been friendly on the facialbook for a couple years now).  it was actually very nice to see him.  and even nicer to be reminded why i left him in the first, second and third place....

yikes.

nothing so dramatic in my life. quelle surprise. however, dealing with the whole abortion thing from a distance has been somewhat trying.

and there are a bunch of real actual dead people happening. which is totally different.

i'm lucky, i guess. i don't live where such corpses can find me. in fact, except for one or two who decide to hound every so often, because they know where i am contact-wise, i don't run into awful people.

now watch. i've said this. i am now not ever leaving my home again. ever. 

what a bitch, though. don't step on my blanket??????? i would have tripped on it on purpose, maybe spilled a soda. a hotdog with mustard. oooooo who is feeeling passive-agressive?

Oh satori, just picturing the whole thing makes me nauseous ! Ewww ! If you had any temptation to bitch-slap Miss Blanket, and fought it back; then you're a saint in my book. My 12th house Mercury would've had me in a verbal pickle in 2.5 seconds, had I encountered such nastiness.

I've relocated, so any of my corpses would have to make a gigantic effort to catch up with me. I'm more loaded up with health concerns, than anything else right now. It's always something !

LOL le soleil. we are on the same wavelength. you have merc in 12th, as well, eh. yeah. that woman would be SO toast. if i wasn't so far away i would go hunt her down. (if there are authorities monitoring this site, that was a joke.)

Last night, September 23rd (2011), I was looking through the family history information I'd been sent. I discovered that my parents were divorced officially on September 23rd (1981).

I was like, "FUCK. Tripped right on that corpse".

Ya what a bitch indeed. Great way to get snapped out of it for good. Like a band-aid being pulled off. Turns out it was never about you so you're cap moon is still in good standing - she's just one of those women who never outgrow being a bitch. Place more value in befriending councilmen with horrid morals then good people.

I'd probably either ignore and feel relaxed in finally knowing her character or go passive-aggressive and be sure to step on it on the way out. :D OOPS did I do that???

i too have moved far away from my corpses.. although i still review them in my mind when the energy collides.

heh heh heh, you guys are great! :D I love it!

I was thinking about my weekend forecast... I had an inkling personally, a serious, conscious inkling, that if I went out last night I was going to get something like this. I went anyway and I'm glad that I did. the see and be seen vibe overrode and it was a good thing. while my irritation was HIGH, my affect was calm. I'm so ready never to think about her and her blanket or that dude again! the tide turned and by today I have stopped feeling anything PERSONAL toward her at all. I no longer have any illusions that I have a personal connection with either of them. so it was good I got out and found that out. in fact, it makes me feel stronger and less leery of getting out in this psychic cesspool of a town in general. losing social inhibition for the win.

I hear ya Satori - that is definitely liberating! Find the peeps like you and love them and revel in them. I moved back to my small town/small city that I left due feeling so different ( uranus ascendent ) Now I'm back and I really revel those who are more like me. It's pure pleasure to see them and be with them.. and easier to put a boundary around the others. In the big city which was supposed to be so progressive held just as many screwed up "small towners dressed in big clothes" that it was actually more exhausting.

"Fuck her and her damn blanket. I mean it."

LOLOLOL...okay...that is too funny!

Satori, I don't know what to even say! You just knock my socks off when you tell these stories. I tip my hat.

I am an old woman I live in a shoe, I have so many corpses I don't know what to do...I live in Venus/Pluto land 24/7. In the natal; plus my Solar Return; plus Pluto transit to Venus, and Venus transit to Pluto. WTF. This is like a lesson in...I don't even know what.

LOL Sorry for the Mars/Mercury in the 12th square Uranus/Pluto blast!

I have a low tolerance for snobby middle age women acting like 14 year old bitches....

I liked it! you're my kind of thinker!

I'd probably either ignore and feel relaxed in finally knowing her character or go passive-aggressive and be sure to step on it on the way out. :D OOPS did I do that???

Hahaha - this is soooo what I was thinking when I read the story! Think I might have filled a big mac with ketchup and mustard and all kinds of goo then 'accidently' dropped it on the damn blanket!  Women like that give women a bad name... ugh!

No corpses for me!  However, I couldn't help chuckling all week about how Brad Pitt popped up as a corpse to Jennifer Aniston recently and took a lot of heat for it.  Even the rich and famous have/are corpses!

Wow, that's uncomfortable, S.  That's the same kind of funking woman that runs all over my neighborhood.  They act the same as their preteen daughters.  Idiots.

I ran into two at Back to School night last week; they were parents from my now-defunct Girl Scout troop.  One was the mom of the girl who yelled at the little Saggie in the hallways.  This one never bothered to call me to at least tell me she pulled her daughter out.  So that's someone I really didn't want to make any eye contact with.

I'm glad they didn't see me, because I'm not one of those people who can camouflage myself in a crowd.  I stand out, even when I try to hide...

@satori -- I'm so glad you've processed, and are over it ! That's a good feeling.   She'll probably always be a bitch, though.

LMAO dammit Michele stole my answer as i was scrolling down!! i would of gone to the field and when no one was looking smeared my dirty muddy feet all over that shit (was it pink? fucking cunt *excuse my french* ;)

Anyway I'm happy you've kicked them out of your relam, those people don't belong there. But I get what you mean when you say you have to process old feelings/memories.. I supress a lot and then can't explain my feelings later on because I honestly pushed them so far away I dont know where they came from..

My corpse came up this week with my uncle being sick, and me being around my mom more.. She showed me a card and a picture of this girl that kinda looks like me and how she (my mom) took care of her and loved her while she was my mom's patient all these year before going away to college... It brought back feelings of rejection and loneliness that I never realized I felt but now have been able to confront and I'm happy to let go too.

*RAWR*

Oh dear, after that kind of comment, I might have stepped on it anyway and coyly said, "whoops!"

You could have stepped on her to avoid soiling her blanket.

Satori: do you have Pluto on he 11th?

Or maybe a planet that aspects Pluto?

Or the ruler of Pluto on the 11th house?

(Just curious, sorry.)

no, but I have Pluto conjunct Uranus opposite my sun. :)

...that DON'T STEP ON MY BLANKET!!! pissy outburst would have set off my mars jupiter & I would have laughed really really hard in her face without being able to hep it.

((satori))

Bitch!!! I don't understand....what you have no intentions of washing the blanket after taking it out?? What crazy person is that. She has to have tied some wierd stuff up to you, for just saying that. No Hi...normal procedure. Weird things like that. 

((((Satori)))

wow Satori, that's an impressively bitchy corpse but it sounds like you handled it very well. Yay you!!!   

I gotta admit, had that been me, the "I wasn't raised in a barn" thought probably would have just shot right out of my mouth as I was walking by her damned blanket. ;)