Dear Ft. Hood,

Soldiers, please take care of your mental health.  We know you are soldiers, we know you are supposed to be strong.  But sometimes being strong means showing you are weak.  Don't ever take the easy way out.  Or whatever way you think is easy.  Realize that it costs more lives than just those you so selfishly took today.  I remember going down to Kileen and Ft. Hood as a child to visit family in the Army.  I've still got family in the Army.  You're making the Army look bad.  You're making Texas look bad, and as a native Texan, I can't say I like that all too much.  But I can say that the families there, are all in my prayers tonight. 

Sincerely,

Saddened Citizen

Dear Lymphoma cancer,

Please get the fuck out of my friends body.  He is a great guy.  So young, and full of life.  A baby at 21.  You will not destroy him, because I'm sure he will not let you.  Thank God he is a smart young man and went to the doctor earlier on this year in the Summer, so they were able to really track what was going on with him.  His spleen was taken out yesterday, and he was diagnosed with some type of lymphoma cancer.  Sad day, on top of an already sad day.  NRB you are in my prayers, boy.  Been friends since we were 12.  Know this small town loves you.  Keep that positive spirit, keep smiling that bright smile, and never give up your fight.  Or your faith.  I know how bad it feels to be seriously ill and not know what your future holds, I did spend the first 3 months of my life in an incubator at a children's hospital in Ft Worth.  I have had several surgeries in my short 21 years, and my parents have been told several times that I would not make it through the night.  That is not your case tonight, but it could be more of a reality as the days go by.  But I will not even claim that.  Because you will get through.  We've all got faith in you, honey!

Sincerely,

 Concerned (and VERY caring) classmate

Dear mom and dad,

Your behavior tonight was detestable at the very least.  The way that you two treat each other is so unacceptable.  Leave it to Pluto in Cap (dad) to just blow every closet wide open, drag out each skeleton bone by bone and allow you two to just tear each other down with things from the past.  But I'm here to tell you both that you need to grow up.  If you are so unhappy with one another, quit being punks, and end it already.  I'm beginning to think that you two may enjoy the misery you each immerse the other in day in and day out.  Quite sad, but slightly humorous.  Thank you both for teaching me what I never ever want out of a so called marriage.  Saves me a lot of trouble down the line.  Saturn in Libra is here and Saturn really wants you to get your shit together.  Even if not for me, since I'm an adult now, do it for yourselves.  Thank you, very much.

 Disgusted Daughter

I realize hardly any of these things have much to do with astrology (or not pieces that I feel skilled enough to apply...) but it felt good to write them out on here.  If you people are praying people out there, please say a prayer for my friend.  :) Thank you.  Sigh... I feel a little better now, but sometimes a good night's sleep does wonders. 

Very, very real :-)

I about cried about your friend, Ro. I will send healing and love and perfect health.

Dear Universe,

I am ready. I am ready to do what it is I came here to do.

P.s. Keep me happy on my journey, I am done with sadness.

Love and Light,

Brittany Noelle Williams

Ro,

 You are awesome - keep that spirit of yours light :).

I feel like I have to remind myself this daily....this is from a recent bought of blahs (lasted 6 months!).  

Dear Me, 

I'm sorry I fell out of love with you....I was disillusioned and didn't know my up from down. Now I see you in a new light and find you absolutely ravishing..just please don't project your image onto your next relationship - just let him be! Stop idealizing and just accept him for who he is - not who you'd like him to be or what you believe he is because YOU have those qualities. You are adorable let him treat you like you're precious. Aries moon and all.

Love,

me. 

Awww thanks y'all!!!  If anyone else wants to send their "Dear..." feel free to do so.  It always feels good to vent here and there!

WanderingStar, I am always real.  Haha. :) 

Bretagne, he will be fine.  He is a fighter, and he has all of our support.  I truly believe he will come out of this stronger than ever.  :)  Really, thank you.  I will keep you updated if you would like.

WhosThatLady, thank you!!! :)

Just wanted to come back here and update this a little bit... A couple of months ago I posted:

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Dear Lymphoma cancer,

Please get the fuck out of my friends body.  He is a great guy.  So young, and full of life.  A baby at 21.  You will not destroy him, because I'm sure he will not let you.  Thank God he is a smart young man and went to the doctor earlier on this year in the Summer, so they were able to really track what was going on with him.  His spleen was taken out yesterday, and he was diagnosed with some type of lymphoma cancer.  Sad day, on top of an already sad day.  NRB you are in my prayers, boy.  Been friends since we were 12.  Know this small town loves you.  Keep that positive spirit, keep smiling that bright smile, and never give up your fight.  Or your faith.  I know how bad it feels to be seriously ill and not know what your future holds, I did spend the first 3 months of my life in an incubator at a children's hospital in Ft Worth.  I have had several surgeries in my short 21 years, and my parents have been told several times that I would not make it through the night.  That is not your case tonight, but it could be more of a reality as the days go by.  But I will not even claim that.  Because you will get through.  We've all got faith in you, honey!

Sincerely,

 Concerned (and VERY caring) classmate"

This classmate (and wonderful young man) of mine is CANCER FREE.  :) :) :)  Thank God.  He has one more treatment and he is in remission.  That's a great early V-day present to me.  As I understand how it is to be extremely ill while it seems like everyone else can just float on by.  I have extreme faith in miracles (I am one) and in the power of keeping a strong mind.  So happy to be able to update with this great news tonight.

That is good news, Ro...

Keep your chin up!  :)

good to hear about your friend! :)

yay!

Hoooooooray, Ro!  Glad to hear!

Dear mom, Thanks for fucking me up. Thanks for being manipulative and ruining my sense of self worth with your expectations and your criticism. Thanks for dropping us off at whoever, whenever it suited you for the first eight years of my life, so you could have 'a life'. Thanks for talking me out of every original thought, espression of emotion or feeling I’ve ever expressed. Thanks for putting me down every time I showed any initiave. Thanks for manipulating me in to doing what you wanted me to do. Thanks for ganging up on me with my sister . Thanks for presenting me to the world as the difficult daughter, the crazy one the disobedient one. Thank for making me feel guilty and thanks for clinging on to me when I wanted to move out. Thanks for dying and breaking my heart. I’m totally fucked up emotionally I have no friends or sense of self worth and more often than not I wake up wanting to die. I let people walk all over me and I let them put me down, you know why? Because you taught me I deserved that. But also thanks for loving me, deep down I know you did. I still love you though cause ironically everything you did it out of love. But at the same time my anger towards you consumes me. I miss you every day like I missed you all my life.

Dear sister,

Thanks for placing all the responsibility of taking car of mom on me. Thanks for telling me I should take care of mom because I wasn’t doing anything with my life. Thanks for telling me no every time I asked you for a small favor. Thanks telling me repeatedly that everything that’s wrong with my life is my own fault. Thanks for telling me the answer to all problems in the world is finding a man. Thanks for not comforting me when I broke down in tears over mom’s death for the first time three years after her death, after I had been comforting you the whole time. Thanks for making me feel like a stranger in your house. Thanks for never offering me any help and thanks for taking advantage of my generosity. Thanks for refusing to cover for me when nosy family members want to pry in my private life so they can have something to talk about.

Dear "dad",

Or better: dear who? Thanks for leaving my mom for your secretary I hope she was a good lay. Thanks for installing in me the belief that men are dogs, heartless and cruel. Thanks for making me a bitch to every man I talk to. Thanks for refusing to open up to us when we were growing up. Thanks for sharing no quality time. Thanks for being detached when I was dating a loser boyfriend in my late teens. The fact you didn’t care made me feel even more worthless. Thanks for continuing your meeting  after I called you to help me and showing up after four hours. The fact that I was in trouble  with the police who took me to station because I was caught on a train without a ticket really didn’t bother you enough. Nor did the fact that I was scared for my life and could barely speak during the ordeal. Thanks for making me feel like a burden. Thanks for talking about my mother like she was a bitch. Thanks for not paying child support for years. Thanks for running out on your family like a dog runs out on a bitch. I hate you and consequently that makes me hate all men. Thanks, you robbed me of a childhood, my teens and my mom. Thanks for not caring about my mom, she died of a broken heart and you had the nerve to show up at her funeral. You‘ll never really understand how much I hate you. You’ll never be able to fathom what evil I’ve wished upon you. I truly hate you.

Dear Dad: You're a tool.

Hahaha, luci! 

Thank you for the laugh (out loud, at work, again!)...I love it!  (:D

Yes, this has been great news.

I'm liking everyone's "Dear..." letters and the vent sessions.  Feels good to get it all out.

Dear Moon-face, Urinal-boy...whatever I choose to call you at any time of day...

Isn't it sweet that I am merely a two-year temp at this job, and you were a full-timer, who was supposedly a superior "person", but who has been canned BEFORE me?  Bra-ha-ha-ha!  That's called justice, you prick cocksucker, and I hope it stings.  Do you suppose they noticed your regular tardiness, tendency to gravitate toward the men's room frequently during the day (I don't EVEN want to know why!), and your continuous, lengthy breaks and lunches?  Perhaps they listened to your personal calls and noted your online "window-shopping"?  Whatever the case, I know you probably HATED the fact that they were keeping me on a little longer.  :D!!!

You made me your enemy from day one, which I was all too eager to accept and return in kind.  But here I sit at my desk, STILL working...what's left of the job, anyways...and you are out there in the world scraping around for a living and hoping to succeed as a professional gambler...  I can only imagine how you'll turn out and it makes me smile--a LOT!  I'm not superior, and I've known this since my youth.  I don't pretend to be superior, but you did...and who would you rather be today?  I know my time is coming soon enough, and perhaps by the end of the week I will be gone from here, but I must say it makes me laugh out loud that I outlasted YOU!  :D

P.S. Have a lovely day! 

Dear universe, please stop squeezing me like an orange in a juice press.

Oh and dear mom and dad, thanks for never supporting me any of the times when I have really needed you.

Dear well meaning friend

I'm not sharing my day to day with you any more because I'm tired of hearing "it will all be ok."  I have an abiding faith in the ultimate benevolence of the Universe, and so yes, I know it will all eventually be OK.  But when I'm getting my ass handed to me on a regular basis the "it will all be OK" assurance doesn't really do anything but chafe my tender bits.

On a semi related note, I shall also be ignoring your flirting from now on.  If you didn't make a move over beer and fondue, I'm sure you're not going to, regardless of what you may think.  Apparently I was the one that needed the clue by four, so thanks for that at least.  I'm gonna miss the flirting and the fun, though.  Ah well, we can only be who we are and do what we do.  I hope you find the not-me hot chick that you're looking for. 

Moving on with my life,

crafty

Dear Universe:

Not funny.

Not yet, anyway.

crafty

Dear Aquarian father,

I think your over worrying and troubles communicating (Saturn in Gemini) is contributing to your stomach ulcers. I love you, but you are sooooo stubborn. I pray to God that he will help you open your mind. Oh God, please help my father make things easier for himself.

Aquarian father, sublty is good, but subtly is not always wise or fast enough to fend in some situations. Sometimes a straightforward answer is enough. No need to twist, turn, or sprinkle your answers with 'intelligence'.

Also, I love that you love to help (Moon in Virgo), but sometimes you need to let others do their thing and stop babying them, especially me, I'm 21!

Sincerely, your concerned son,

-Toni-

Dear Lady Luck...

Was it something I said?  Just one big lottery jackpot, that's all.  I won't ask you for nothin' again...  And I mean JACKPOT, by the way, not these $1 and $2 winners you've been giving me for the last 20 years.  I can't retire on that chimp-change...

Dear God or whatever you would like me to call you this week. Thanks for reminding me that my problems are about the size of a parasite on a mosquitos ass. Thanks for reminding me to be grateful every day. Please help the people here who are suffering. Please help them to find peace and happiness in their lives.   

Dear crafty:

Stop bitching.  Keep swimming.  Forecast the same for the next bit, so you'll have to deal.

Just remember to keep the knives.

me

Wow... All I can say is "Just keep venting, just keep venting..." Like they sing in Finding Nemo "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..." Haha.

It's constructive, to get it out here.

Appreciate everyone's honesty. :)

dear salsa:

I will miss you.  It's mean to leave me like this just when I neeeeeed an outlet, but if you gotta go you gotta go.  I think I'm gonna keep the sparkly shoes for tango though, OK?  I hope you don't mind.  

crafty

edit to add, to Ro:  this is about the only place I can put together a complete sentence right now.  Thanks for starting it.

Dear Lotteries (mega & super),

I've been playing you consistently for almost 4 straight years now, without missing a game, and spending who knows how much money on my numbers.  Granted, I've won some back, and I've always been appreciative and polite and said "thank you" and shown gratitude...and although I've gotten the mega number and additional numbers (2 in the last super and 3 in a super several weeks ago) isn't it time you let me win a nice big jackpot as a consolation prize for my dependability playing you each and every game?  Huh?  Please?  And I'm talkin' the mega number and ALL the other numbers on a line--meaning, THE jackpot prize.  It's about time, wouldn't you say?  My luck has progressed somewhat since last year, and I'd REALLY love to stay at home and work on my projects instead of slave away my time at an unfulfilling job for a pittance...  Tonight is another mega and I got my tickets yesterday, won't you see it in your heart (Lady Luck, I hope you're listening!) to grant me a nice big juicy jackpot?  I'd like to not have to come back to work ever again...  Thank you and have a great weekend!

NUTSY :)

Nutsy- Good luck! I hope that you win!

Thanks Orlando!  (rubs lucky rabbit's foot)

Good luck, Nutsy!!!

Thanks, Shannon!  My luck is supposed to be picking up the next few months, it would be nice if Lady Luck had a bounty for me at the end of this rainbow...