I somewhat had to let this out because argh! I was upset but I'm ok now!

When a girl who is somewhat pursuing my SO visited his tent in an athletic event he belonged too, I had to contain my anger and somewhat join in conversation. My SO doesn't really lead her on or show any signs that he is remotely interested, but that doesn't stop her. Fortunately, she hasn't pulled any kind of flirtatious moves on him - I guess because I was there. 

It came to the point that I could not contain my anger. I did not want to cause a scene and embarrass both of them in front of his entire team, so I decided to leave half an hour earlier. When I stood up, my legs felt like jelly and I was faint! I could barely stand but I managed to get myself up, regardless. I had a good breakfast AND lunch - so why was I faint? And then I felt the most intense pain on my side. While my SO was biking with me towards the end of the park's path, I had to stop because my side was killing me and I was slightly hyperventilating.

I explained to my SO later how angry I was and how I wanted to unleash my anger into this girl. But I didn't want to appear so possessive and crazy (which I know I am) so I didn't want to do this to hurt him. I love him so much that I am willing to hold back this ugly beast of a jealousy bug that I have. After telling him everything, and after telling him how guilty I felt for feeling like this, the pain went away (about 15 minutes later).

I'm going through a Pluto transit, and from what I know, Pluto brings a lot of issues to surface - perhaps including your feelings. In this case, I was trying to calm down and control the anger I had brewing within me but somehow it had to come out in the form of pain. 

Has your hidden anger manifested itself by physical pain? I'd like to hear how you handled it. 

I also have a Mars in Leo in 5th... retrograde. So I have a tendency to inflict damage on myself than on others. 

T. Pluto is on my Mars/Asc and I have one of the most painful genetic syndromes you can have. :(

My Mars is in the 12th conj Asc & the Pluto transit has really helped me get in touch with it LOL.

Unfortunately when the t. moon interacts with that Pluto stuff, weird things happen, including random women attacking me for no reason whatsoever LOL.

During my pluto transit I had migraines that came about during a very terrible, stressful and angry situation with a roommate I had for about a year. I would have migraines almost every single day. Five months have passed since I got out of the situation and have been healing. I rarely get them anymore and have not had a full migraine in about a month.

Lunalie: When I was younger I had feelings of jealousy and I had a hell of a temper to go along with it. I'm older and more mellow now and more secure in how I feel about myself. It's ongoing work but I suggest you do some "Shadow Work." This can be done on line as there are many sites devoted to helping people understand their Shadow, work with it, embrace and be at peace with it. Go to google and type in Shadow Work + how to, or something to that effect.  

Jealousy, anger and all the other 7 sins comes from the Shadow side of the human psyche come from the repressed side of our personality or Shadow. Carl Jung was the pioneer in this theory of the Collective Shadow (and how it drives our lives for good or bad,) so you might want to read up on him.  I have been working on my shadow since 95' when the dark curtain came down on my life, (pluto transiting gemini my ascendent). and believe me 14 years is a hell of long time to be swimming thru so much shit I can't even begin to describe it. I'm a different person now. Less hot headed and more spiritual. I still have issues but I understand all of it now. There is something to be said for self work and mellowing.

High Five to you for not letting this monster explode in your face and for having the awareness to directly deal with it in a pro active & holistic manner. You are on the path to wisdom. 

I agree with mimi in a high-five to you for controlling yourself.  In my case, my anger is a monster who has a life of it's own, and if it has anything to do with Pluto, than Pluto has been fucking with me my whole life I suppose.  As far as physical symptoms, I get a ringing in my ears, and my heart races so fast I am surprised it has not burst.  I still struggle with this - having kids made me deal with it, and most certainly having a child with special needs as well.  But I still can go from zero to psycho if I let the monster loose, and jealousy, sometimes I do think I could have killed someone in a blind rage - so therapy, specifically anger management, helped me with that, as I have not ever been in jail   Thanks mimi I am going to google "shadow work" sounds like something perfect for me. 

Yes. Pluto transit to most my chart, and it's happened way more than in the past although I've experienced this as long as I can remember. Whenever I feel let down something just kicks in and washes right over me. Kind of like a deep slow pain that wells up in my chest and bursts, radiating down both arms and out through the tips of my fingers. Almost electric in intensity, comes in big waves. I like to think in my mind it's the hand of God on my chest pressing out all the pain till it's gone.

T. Pluto has hit all of my personal planets since I was about 7-8 years old.  The one that really affected me was its square to my Sun/Mars conjunction when I was in my late teens and early 20s.  With Aries rising and all that Leo, I have a bad temper, but it really scared people off when that transit was going on.  More timid people didn't know how to handle me, and other people didn't want to find out why I had this perpetual pissed-off look on my face.

Now?  I'm much more mellow and it takes a lot to get me mad, but when it does, it completely takes over.  That's why I try to avoid situations or people that piss me off.  I don't need my blood pressure skyrocketing over idiots.

Hi Lunalie, I have retro Mars as well and been dealing with the same kind of issue all my life.  It's vital to find ways of dealing with it, because repressed anger will eventually knock out your kidneys and spleen and/or head (migraines and such).  I find that physical work needs to be done alongside the psych work- acupuncture has been really useful for me, the physical rebalancing of energy helps me be more balanced mentally and better able to express myself in a more reasoned way.

Lunalie: you might want to do some exercises as suggested in releasing this energy. Anger has to physically be moved up and out of your body. Or it creates havoc in the body. Like ulcers, stomach problems, muscle spasms, etc.

What worked for me (lucky I live out in the middle of nowhere,) is going outside with a plastic bat and screaming and hitting the ground. Whatever pisssed me off I just pretended that "they/or whoever" was in front of me and I was just kickin' the shit out of them and wailing with the bat. I'm a great visualizer and so maybe I was throwing some mojo on them but coincidently after the anger unloaded, these folks or whatever the situation was seemed to  have had the air let out of it.  I too have scared people with my simmering sense of rage just beneath the surface. I'm misunderstood and have been all my life so I'm comfortable with people not "getting it" with me. I just don't care anymore what they think. I have a strong personality and a strong energy field to go with it and I'm not going to apologize for it. That's their problem. The sooner you release yourself from other's opinions, the happier and lighter you're gonna be. It's your life.

Also forgot to say this in previous posts. Examine your tendency to fall into a victim mindset when things trigger your anger. Lots of my anger came from my tendency to feel like victim.