I was just going to confide one of the deepest secrets I know to someone on these boards. I was writing and then I decided I ought to shut my mouth. The reason was because it was email. 

I would still tell the person by voice but I realized I ought not create a record with my name on it that could never be denied.

Hmm.

I've done that before. I don't think you're being paranoid, just realistic. Write a thing down and it exists forever, these days.

 :). Said a native Scorpio moon.

My Moon Pluto is paranoid but I still think you made a wise decision.

Yeah, I don't think it's paranoid either.  It's realistic but sad for me. I just have to keep my mouth shut all day long and I'm not really built for it. I do amazingly well, considering.

I hate keeping secrets :(

Anything put on the internet in any way can no longer be considered 100% secure, I don't care what kind of high-end security program you're running, and this includes VOIP chats like Skype.

I get where you're coming from with this.  It's unfortunate.

I understand too, although I'm having severe withdrawal symptoms from this curtailment of Pannizon Family Saga news etc etc. Bummer all round :(

I think I am on the only person on the planet who knows this (besides the person with the secret). I have told my son and one other person. I wanted to tell one more person who I know would and could appreciate the depth of what I'm saying but then hit my brake.

It makes me wonder...well, more and more I feel that life really will be continued in future lives. It's not possible to comprehend all that is presented that you know pertains to you.  So when this happens, it's easier to deal with.

I know there are stacks and stacks of things I can't get to before I die. Things that are really personal to me, that are inordinately important to learn about but I can reach. Lack of time. Lack of intellect, lack of perspective or all these things in some kind of combination prevent me from in depth study and I just wonder at this point if it's just a preview. Like being in elementary school. You know you're going to high school but you're not there yet.

And BP? There is no Panizzon family saga. I don't know what you're talking about. My mother is dying. That's it.

That's an interesting statement, Elsa. I think there was a thread a bit ago where some people wrote that they didn't want to come round again... You know, have another life. I feel quite the opposite.

I just wish I was more in tune with the continuum (or the wholeness of time & space) instead of feeling truncated. I've had some very brief and barely remembered dreams... Not nearly enough to fully grasp. But I'm generally just here, now. I guess that's great. Live in the moment and all. But I always feel like something is slipping through my fingers.

Maybe sometime I'll be done with the 12th. Meanwhile I guess I'll keep sloshing through it. It certainly is one interesting perspective.

You're right. There isn't enough time. Mostly I'm okay with this, but I also wonder how much I let slide because I think 'Eh, I'll deal with this next life.' It's very curious.

Post on the idea that things are previewed this life to be dealt with in the future.

(So we can stay on topic) :)

cool, thanks!

Funny how often I've had the feeling of having tied up unfinished business with people- romantic relationships- in this life. The feeling that there was something before and it was resolved. It was bitersweet and then....it just cleared up. My husband is the only one who feels discoverable, and I've always felt this way about him. So very different from anyone before.

I've done that before as well.

I also believe there are things I won't be able to do in this life. There are relationships with others that are going to have to be resolved or will have a different incarnation in the next life.

I  forgot   about  throwing  away  some  very   dark  clothes  I used to  wear  , ( all  the  time long  ago ) and  it  was  really  about  being  around  someone  who  came  very  close  to  seeing  me  , I  don`t know  why  this  thread  brought  up  that memory  but thanks   Elsa

Forget the fact that it was an e-mail.

Even deleted stuff you have that's written in an off line program can be retrieved sometimes.

If something were to go wrong, your computer can be siezed & you're stuffed, even when you think you're "safe".

Anything like that should never be typed out. Full Stop.

& no, I don't think that's paranoia at all, it is just being logical, sensible & sane.

Still sitting on it like a chicken does an egg. I don't like it. I'm not very chicken-y as it turns out.

I don't want to know anyone's secrets.  It's too hard, even as a Capricorn, to build a box to contain a secret.   I have to just forget it, throw away the key. Then the secret teller is amazed I don't remember it!

People tell me their secrets all the time. The most potentially damaging ones to their lives, reputations, jobs, relationships. Since I never want to be accused of revealing them, I am never tempted to blab. It's an integrity thing. There is no way someone "found out" from me.

Funny though, there are times when someone is surprised that I didn't pass along some information (their secret) when they think it would have been ok to share.

Uh, no. I don't "manage" people's secrets, I swallow them and that's that. That's what a secret is!

This came up again. I was going to email (the tip of the iceberg) and again stopped myself because of the record it would create. damn.