Let's see....I have uranus conjunct sun in my natal and I'm currently going through a uranus opposite uranus transit.

Uranus is opposite Saturn which is also currently sitting on my sun.

Now Uranus is going retrograde.

Me = confused.

Uranus retrograde has me feeling pretty confused, too. It's square my ASC to the exact degree. I feel, in turns, awesome in how my life is going...and then PHHHHHHTwhaddaloadashite...went to bed crying myself to sleep...woke up feeling like a million bucks and actually kinda happy! Jeez!

Uranus has been bumping back and forth over my Descendant and North Node. Uhhhhhh......

It's actually been a bit rougher than I thought it would be. I'm in a period of about three years where I'm just not going to come out the same on the other end of it. 

(if you read into it, you'll also know that Saturn's been doing the same over my Ascendant. Good times, good times....) 

How are things going Kash? After my big break up I felt like that for awhile.

I'm trying to figure out if it's energy bouncing around like a ping pong ball or does it get trapped with nowhere to go and then implodes. I mean how many actual transits can you go through at one time and can the energy transmute? Right now it feels as if Saturn is lording over everything and I have to stay home and do my homework while my friends get to go to the playground and eat ice cream. :(

thanks togi, i missed your comment earlier somehow...after uranus retrograde i woke up and *click* I felt better. I've been staying with a friend. I go home every day to feed the cat, those 5-20 minute visits have been good for me getting used to the apartment again (him not in it). Got some distance from him, that's helped. Trying to curb the fear, writing a lot, not smoking too much, sleeping regularly...one whole day where I didn't cry.

I wonder this too: "how many actual transits can you go through at one time and can the energy transmute" 

It's a mystery to me.